Satellights

Fuck Love

It might have seemed easier than, easier said than done
With all the death, illness, hospitals, and pills we’ve made it through, you’d think this wasn’t the easy way out, but it is, it is
It seemed so easy in the beginning, it seemed so easy then, better said than done
like cooking and growing plants on my part, like acting like an adult on yours
I will keep all the seriousness, I will hold on to all this death, illness, hospitals, and pills so you won’t ever have to worry about a thing
They’ll say that’s not the traditional way, but when were we ever traditional anyway
Let them think what they’ll think, I’ve never cared about staring, or rude awakenings, and I know you don’t care about anyone but yourself, and that’s just the way I like ‘em
I swear if I could I’d hold your hand
but I can’t promise I wouldn’t ever let go, there’s just too much in this universe I need to know
and I swear I’m gonna change a hell of a lot over these next few years, but I will always love you, I swear, I swear, I swear I will
and you can hold me to my word, you know you always can

Life is pretty fucking complicated
I could list a million moments in time that prove this theory true, that prove this theory true
I don’t want to say I was bossy and forceful because those are things I never am, but I was bossy and forceful, and I wouldn’t take any of it back
I’ve been happy for your love and all its mood swings because I have my mood swings too, so thank you for putting up with me and my dim witted personality
I won’t have to miss all your jokes and bright ideas because I know they’ll stick around
Nothing’s set in stone, nothing’s set in stone, but I said I loved you, and that’s as good as any laser cut headstone to me
I’m not gonna hurt if you leave, but I also won’t be happy
and I know you’ll hurt a good deal if you leave, and you’ll learn to cry yourself to sleep
like the immature, feminine man you are
but baby, you’ll always mean the world to me, to me

So go, get over it, get over it
This is always ever easier said than done, but what isn’t, what isn’t
You say you hate the thought of love, god your such a teenager
You say you’ll take this to your grave, but I’ve already said I love you, and that’s as good as any laser cut headstone to me, to me
So, give up if you want, run away if you want
I’m not the bossy forceful one, that was always you, that was always you
Only end this if you want to, don’t worry, I will support you in every thing you do

To hell with sex, to hell with physicalness
There’s too much death, illness, hospitals, and pills in this to worry about any of that
To hell with distance, to hell with making money, I just want you to be happy, and I know you’re happy with this, and even if I’m not I know you don’t care, and that’s just the way I like ‘em, I swear
I’m not beating myself down like all the other times before, and I’m not complaining like all the other times before
You’re not too much, you’re not too much, you’re just right, well done, tender in the middle, just the way I like ‘em

When you’re around it’s anything but peaceful, you kick and scream
Get all the tantrums out of your system, you’re just the way I like ‘em, blonde, blue eyed, gay, and always ready to put up a fight
So put up your dukes, and don’t back down
I’ve learned a great deal from you, and these pieces of sand you’ve beaten down into my skin, ingrained them there until they sunk into my subconscious
I’ve learned a great deal from you, and your angry heart
Thought you’d find peace in the death of your home, but you only found anger, and more angst than you were able to live with, so you take it all out on us, you take it all out on me
but baby, I still love you, you’ll see, you’ll see

To hell with everything I thought I needed from a relationship
To hell with love, to hell with real love, and soul mates, love at first sight, caring compassion
You’re making me bitter, so goddamn bitter
But oh, you haven’t broken my heart yet, and I doubt if you ever will
I’ve been happy for your love and all its mood swings because I have my mood swings too, so thank you for putting up with me and my dim witted personality
I won’t have to miss all your jokes and bright ideas because I know they’ll stick around
Nothing’s set in stone, nothing’s set in stone, but I said I loved you, and that’s as good as any laser cut headstone to me
I’m not gonna hurt if you leave, but I also won’t be happy
and I know you’ll hurt a good deal if you leave, and you’ll learn to cry yourself to sleep
like the immature, feminine man you are
but baby, you’ll always mean the world to me, to me

So go, get over it, get over it
This is always ever easier said than done, but what isn’t, what isn’t
You say you hate the thought of love, god your such a teenager
You say you’ll take this to your grave, but I’ve already said I love you, and that’s as good as any laser cut headstone to me, to me
So, give up if you want, run away if you want
I’m not the bossy forceful one, that was always you, that was always you
Only end this if you want to, don’t worry, I will support you in every thing you do

Life is pretty fucking complicated
I could list a million moments in time that prove this theory true, that prove this theory true
I don’t want to say I was bossy and forceful because those are things I never am, but I was bossy and forceful, and I wouldn’t take any of it back
I’ve been happy for your love and all its mood swings because I have my mood swings too, so thank you for putting up with me and my dim witted personality
I won’t have to miss all your jokes and bright ideas because I know they’ll stick around
Nothing’s set in stone, nothing’s set in stone, but I said I loved you, and that’s as good as any laser cut headstone to me
I’m not gonna hurt if you leave, but I also won’t be happy
and I know you’ll hurt a good deal if you leave, and you’ll learn to cry yourself to sleep
like the immature, feminine man you are
but baby, you’ll always mean the world to me